pancakes still, ranch dressing, carrots and TACO BELL..oh my!

You would think I was feeding a future starting linebacker the way my cravings have gone...first five weeks, I ate bags of spinach,asparagus and broccoli..then i graduated to celery, carrots, turkey and pasta...moving on with great speed to my current fave, pancakes, anything and everything with ranch dressing( i lick the bowl till its gone) scrambled egg whites and toast.....and now to the big boy Taco Bell...for the last five days at work, it's been three tacos with onions and hot sauce...I feel like all i do is eat! I am going to confess...I caved into a half of cup of coffee one day..and I my baby didn't give me a seal of approval, in fact I think he kicked me..no flutter there, a KICK!
In between actual work at work, I am consumed thinking and planning my next meal, silently calculating in my brain if I have given baby boy/girl enough nutrients..am I doing enough of everything..before I get home, peel out of my work clothes and collapse into my fav yoga pants, Red Sox shirt( quickly becoming a half shirt) and fuzzy slippers..
then my daughter and I coo and talk to the baby boy( I am going with that until further notice) before the late hour of 9:30 comes around and my eyes start to get heavy on the couch...
By ten o'clock I feel like I have been working in 100 degree weather in the cotton fields...
Being pregnant can wear you out!:)

I'm having a baby! - no that's not a typo..

due in September..thought about renaming the blog, but too complicated and I like my moniker..I'm eating veggies now, hot dogs, belgian pudding and celery when the mood hits...Gave up coffee, tequila, and red wine cold turkey..fun week that was.:) 40 years old and I am sure that God always has a sense of humor with my life...not a planned pregnancy but I am thrilled...and the baby xray( as my dad calls him) is cooperating immensely..no morning sickness, just a superhuman nose..I can smell everything anyone has eaten in the last day, as well as bo around the corner...not the best super sense to have, but it beats barfing...I've joined every baby club on the net, but most of those women scare me, have me obsessing over things I would prefer not to obsess about.. although it's fun to see that there are over three hundred women in my due Septemeber 15th birth club..not so fun to think I'll qualify for the early bird specials when my baby xray is graduating from high school...my firstborn thinks this is awesome and is being the best big sister already...but she was born essentially perfect..so nothing less was expected....

gotta go now and eat this healthy breakfast I guess..headed to the doctor to see the little baby heartbeat...swoon...I am officially in love with my baby.

Sunday thoughts.

"after family, all the rest are strangers"...Wyatt Earp

"me plus you baby girl lets add and we never divide and we just subtract" lil Wayne

"Ward, I'm worried about Beaver." June Cleaver`

"I'll be in aisle eight for the next five minutes if you'd like to discuss Sarah Palin. "- me last night at Ralphs.

"I was not lying. I said things that later on seemed to be untrue." Richard Nixon

"The hottest places in hell are reserved for those who, in time of great moral crisis, maintain their neutrality."— Dante Alighieri

-I'm a dude. If I like you, I kiss you. - a dude

"Don't pray when it rains if you don't pray when the sun shines." Satchel Paige

"Half of the harm that is done in this world is due to people who want to feel important. They don't mean to do harm but the harm does not interest them."— T.S. Eliot

The world is a book, and those who do not travel read only one page."— St. Augustine

"I wasn't kissing her, I was whispering in her mouth." -- Chico Marx

"A hero is no braver than an ordinary man, but he is brave five minutes longer." -- Ralph Waldo Emerson

"Appreciation is a wonderful thing; it makes what is excellent in others belong to us as well.."Voltaire

"No answer is your answer" by Greg (written in the "What you should have learned from this chapter"...if he doesn't answer your calls or you never hear from him again, that is your answer.)

-It's very tempting when you really want to be with someone to settle for much, much less- even a vague, pathetic facsimile of less- than you would have ever imagined. Ladies, please, keep your eye on the prize. - Greg Behrendt - " He's just not that into you"

"If being sane is thinking there's something wrong with being different I would rather be completely fucking mental"- Angelina Jolie

remembering love

remember i love you
was our hello
and
the smell of Issey
and your skin
made late to
anywhere real
the kitchen
with the white stone
tiles i still
feel against my
back
damn you make me
words
your lips said on their
way to covering mine
so deep
with love
I ache even now
missing grooves and beats
only we
hear
where are your
hands
clenching mine
the air
moves
now
not like
opening
that door in
our
room so the air
could
breathe.
9 1/2 weeks times
a couple
of years
and more than
a
couple of
years ago
I can't imagine my life without you
remember this love
you taught
me
before I shut the
door
one last
time.

sunday thoughts

• intelligence is a huge aphrodisiac..



• so is good red wine.



• Michael Phelps aka Aqua man swam an entire race with his eyes closed and still won by almost two seconds...



• Love Madonna, but still trying to figure out the British accent. Isn't she from Detroit?



• "Only one person can lead sweetie. And that's me" my grandfather..





• You can't over hug your kid.



• " The Four Agreements" is a life changing book.



• Manny Ramirez will never look right in Dodger blue.



• You learn so much more when you listen.



• Big sent me a text last night. However I am trying to listen to Laura's advice. So I erased it.



• I love LOVE the flower mart.



• Green Bay Packers are STUPID....I hate the Jets, but this year I will make an exception.



• A man in love is a sexy thing.



• So is a man with his kid.



• I love love lala land..but wish it was a little closer to home.

getting dumped sucks..even if your dog does hate him....

I was team Jolie..Then. While I didn't carry small vials of my ex's blood, Angelina resonated with me, the wild child, stoic yet uber passionate, never apologizing for figuring it out as she went along. Jen was every girl I knew growing up..pretty, perky and perfect.

But while Angelina walked in to soul mate land with Mr. UnGodly beautiful, Jen joined the cast of Sex and the City,..the LA version...hot guys, fast starts, followed by the slamming of the brakes and being thrown headfirst from the relationship..with the canned statement from his publicist..

" we remain great friends"

eeeeeeew. Who does that? Says that? Outside of Hollywierd? Ok, probably a lot of people, just not me or Jen...so with Shaggy DA aka John Mayer, dumping her can officially be labeled a trader.

and another side note..someone please explain Heidi Montag to me....

Trader Joes, John Edwards, being smart in Hollywood..

It's occurred to me that being beautiful while intelligent in Los Angeles could be considered an occupational hazzard. I can only dumb down for so long before I want to grab my pants like Fred Sanford and say " What? What?" And when did moms and wives get so ANGRY??? I mean yeah, once again I will use my favorite phrase to describe John Edwards.." he sucks ass" but for God sakes he didn't kill anyone, he had an affair!!!!!! He's a man. Go figure. Still sucks but can we please move on to bigger topics like how Casey Anthony seems to be the poster child for bringing back street justice. UGH!! And are you serious, China made the sky blue for the opening ceremonies?? While they sweep the poor under the sidewalk..literally.
How about Michael Phelps?? Single mom, great smile, caring swim coach who took just another kid and helped train him into quite possibly the best Olympian of all time. And they say that after school programs dont' matter. Ask Denzel about that...
Men who say there are no good women usually suck ass at being good men. Ditto for the reverse too.
I love Trader Joes! Although could the parking lots be a lil bit bigger? Do the wide aisles at Ralphs equal the 75% mark up?
Loofahs make your skin softer and get more dirt off.
I'm now allergic to my own cat. Damnit.. But I still leave the television on for her during the day..
A mojito sounds heavenly..see ya..